crusified-pheonix

it comes in waves, first happiness and success. Then anger and neglect. And then sadness. I'm not sure where it goes from here, but I grow weary of this tossing and turning. I sit alone on the couch, wondering how independent I actually am. But usually, just before you hit rock bottom, something comes up, and then you get to happiness again. It's taking longer than usual, but I've got nothing but time, so I can wait. It astounds me the number of people on the planet who are so absorbed with their each delusions, they don't take the time to think of other people's delusions.. Or maybe I'm just jealous that they are having fun without a worr

today was...weird. Odd, different, but like most days lately, it felt the same. I was almost attacked by a pack of golden retrievers ( I know right? All kinds of wrong with that). And I saw a movie which described how I feel about life, loved every minute of it, but then came out more depressed than when I went in. I would love to find that kind of resolution, but... Well, it's not as easy as it looks, let's say ; ) I don't have much hope of anything anymore. Alot of everything that I've put hope into has left me in hope debt, so that makes me hopeless and minus some. I don't really like this pit. :/ Can someone lend me a ladder, please?

I lost my job! Yaay! Activision cancelled the game we were working on, which is the most disappointing.. It looked so good. :( oh well, moving on! My friends and I watched the original reel of Raiders of the lost Ark, it was awesome. It actually was really scary on the big screen, and I've never been scared of that movie.. On another note, my sister scared me today to try and get rid of my hiccups. It didn't work, just gave me a heart attack :( I hit the wall I was so terrified... Oh well I'll get her later. I don't really have much interesting to talk about XD whatever. Till next time!